so i've ignored these emails in the past, but i think it's time to start publishing the emails/death threats i've been getting from creature since he was banned:
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i was going to subject this "Khashoggi", but i really don't know if you follow the news or give a shit about what actually makes the world run.
most of your shit is pretty insular (i.e., wrapped up in your web site, as opposed to shit that is actually going down).
i honestly do not know, other than your desire for 'experience' how much shit you have actually sacrificed to be what you *want* to be, while asking others to subsidize that desire, instead of performing it, gratis, because it is something you believe strongly enough in to do so.
Ha, ha, asshole.
you have your first.. or near first, shitty, low paying job that you are locked into because of promises & *obligations* to others, whom mean all fuck to you, because they have *helped* you, and you have made tangible promises to them regarding the cost of work that they have given to you, in love.
fuck you, enemy, if you don't fucking get it.
just fuck you & you need to die, because you are a media pretend entity.
fuck me & i need to die, because all anyone is, whether we care to defend against it or not, is a piece of shit.
Matt?
you have digressed into the realm of corporate assholishness.
fuck, man. you are on the path to fucking politburo...
Holy Fuck..
but.. that's cool.
if that's what you are, then fine.
As i have already said, if your interpersonal relationship with your friends, whom have sacrificed much to sustain that friendship & to *serve it* is 'rule-based' based, instead of being an issue of actual friendship, then i hope you fucking die, in pain, like goddamned trump, because you don't deserve what people have given you.
you are my fucking enemy, & your abuse of my love drives me to border upon *hate* for you, what you represent, what you believe and what you do.
sound scary?
boo fucking hoo.
example is what verifies existence, and your systemology falls way short, asshole, because you demand dependencies from others, rather than being fully self-responsible for what ask others to participate within, with you.
how much shit have you actually done, without asking help from anyone else?
hmm?
how much?
probably very fucking little.
so fuck you.
but i goddamned fucking *dig*.
i grock the community issue..
i fucking *get* the -risk- issue..
i *understand* the hatred of being forced into being what we wish we were not.
i am your friend, heartfelt & possibly ready to die for you,
& i am, at the same time, one of at least one enemy of many thousands of enemies who give no shit for you, because all you spew is vaporous, intangible theory, supported not by what is actually *produced*, but primarily what is *requested* of, from others..
i fucking get it.
just like you fucking do.
& if you are a goddamned anarchist who is going to hit me up with goddamned fucking *rules*, & whom has taken shit from me i could have more directly given to my mother or my goddamned sisters, whom would have been far more loving in response than *your* ass-stenching, ass-saving, "keep my members happy" political equivalence,
*****ESPECIALY**** when i spoke to you and those WHOM I DID NOT DIRECTLY INVITE AND WHOM WERE NOT DIRECTLY INVOLVED in response to the original charge.
so fuck you, you fucking asshole.
*I* know how to apologize..
look at my initial responses & look at my initial constraints..
---------------------------------- another email:
i know, with certainty, that i was the first to move beyond public conversation, but fuck it..
WHO THE FUCK WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MOVING IT FROM AN ISSUE BETWEEN ME, MY ACCUSER (moderator) AND YOU???
not me.
i *only* asked if *YOU* could be involved.
& then?
i saw however many mods invoked..
if that's cool with you?
you are a fuck fucking shit fuck tard on the saudi fucking counsel.
i bless you, because you are now, honestly, my fucking enemy.
what you need to do is be fucking responsible, unlock the '
den of the banned' thread, apologize to me directly, reprimand you idiot mods whom abused their authority & let folks *vote* on whether or not i should be kicked off the site.
that is the *short* of it.
the long of it is that i worked hard..
harder than *any* of your mods, other than Tude, to make your shit *real*..
i helped *build* your goddamned house, not as a hobby or past-time, but as an issue of
Work and Sacrifice.
make your fucking choice.
real or unreal.
over & over & fucking out.
you were weomg, Matt, & an asshole.
expect no fucking compromise.