i know how you feel. its hard. i do ice. i dont like to sleep. i like to focus, and be aware. but take baby steps man. today i got some money, and i was rite down the road from the dealer. i almost drove down the road. i pulled off to the curb and sat and cried a minuet. sometimes you gotta cry. let yourself see where your at. think about who at home looks up to you. it hurts alot. a whole lot. but yea. baby steps. its been almost a week for me sense ive used. i was up for nearly a week. i know heroin is a diffrnet monster tho. its just idk. message me of you ever wanna just talk about it. maby its good to have sombody to vent to?